The beautiful Anastasia Furrow, 26 from Houston, Texas wrote to me to share her body image journey. Prepare to be inspired.
I’m a beautiful 5 feet, 3 inches tall and 215 pounds. My whole life growing up, I’ve always wanted to be a model. No joke, I really did. I don’t want to say I was “obsessed” with the industry, as much as I was just intrigued with it. I’ve always been fascinated by the artistic beauty that comes from modelling. From the makeup, the styling, the photography, the story the images tell, and to the models themselves. I love it all. But at only 5’3 and being “over weight”, I told myself I could never do it.
Its interesting what this universe and God, (whatever you believe), decide to put you through in order to find yourself. I’ve been cheated on, lied to, used, and betrayed by many people who I thought loved me. And through all of these events, I blamed myself. I blamed my body. I blamed how I looked. And even when my dreams would knock on the door asking to come into my life, I gave them excuses; “No, I just need to lose 20 pounds”, or “No I just need to tone up”. It wasn’t until over a year of therapy and reading countless books that it finally clicked: IT DOESN’T MATTER!
Absolutely NOTHING matters in this world except for what you yourself believe in! You HAVE to believe in yourself! You HAVE to take charge of your life no matter what it is. It was this past year that I finally realized that, and I decided to take control of my life. No more did I say negative things to myself. No more was I negative towards anyone else. If I saw someone with a beautiful body, I would thank the universe for giving me the opportunity to view such a divine body. I give love as often as I can. And with that came true blessings/miracles. This past year, I not only started an Etsy business selling jewellery, but I’ve also been signed to a reputable modelling agency in my area even though I never toned up or lost that weight. I am ME! I AM WOMAN! I am not sorry for who I am nor what I look like! I am grateful every day that I am alive and have the opportunity to love and spread as much love as possible. I want women everywhere to love themselves. Because if we can’t love ourselves, we can’t love others, and this world is in desperate need of love between man kind.