Carol, 19 from Massachusetts, got in touch to tell me her personal body image story.
”I’ve struggled with anorexia for about two years and have been attempting recovery for a little over a year. I was in an abusive relationship from the ages of 14-16, a crucial time in the development of self image and building self confidence. Being so young, I was scared to leave and wasn’t sure what to do. I finally found the courage to leave the relationship and get help. About two years after, I found someone else and quickly fell in love. I was so self conscious and doubtful of myself from the previous abuse that I would constantly compare myself to every single girl that came across my way. I began starving myself in an attempt to regain a sense of control over my life. Little did I know that anorexia was actually the one in control, while I was spinning out of it. Eventually the second boyfriend left, extremely randomly and without warning. I was devastated and heartbroken. I decided that it was time I got help. I knew I needed to get better for myself. Not for him, not for my family or friends, but for ME. I didn’t deserve to feel so bad about myself and nobody going through an eating disorder does. I went from being 80 pounds to being at a healthy weight. I admit I still find myself struggling with obsessively counting calories and facing fear foods. There are days where I hate my body so much I break down and cry. But there are also days where I’m proud of myself. Recovery was the best path I could’ve chosen, regardless of the horrible days that come with it. There’s a huge difference between the “old Carol” and the “new Carol”. Today I feel like I’M the one in control. I can choose to eat and feed myself the nutrients it needs. There’s also a lot of hope around me. Every day I count my blessings and am very grateful I even got the opportunity to try recovering from such an awful illness. Everyone going through an eating disorder or any kind of negative body image: stay strong. Know that tomorrow always holds the possibility of positive change. Life is beautiful and so are you – JUST the way that you are. We need to start celebrating ourselves instead of bashing ourselves. We are worth so much more than this. Together, we can make a positive move towards a society where body image is celebrated. Stay strong and stay hopeful.”
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